grace And Peace

We have lost our tiny baby.

We're all pretty emotional. The big kids knew and were excited, hoping for a baby sister.  Bryce is heart broken.  I am sad and unexpectedly battling feelings of guilt and disappointment.  All four of us have wanted extra cuddles with Joshua, who, in the midst of all of this, has remained blithely unaware and generously handed out smiles, if not the cuddles we seek.

As we were not yet setting our hopes on adding a 4th family member it seems more of a shock.  But if anything good has come from this, one thing is clear:  How much the five of us love each other, and how good it is to be together.  We have grace and we have peace.